The little anime in me couldn't leave all the way

I dunno, maybe I will stick around. I have been. I never left lmao. I faved and commented stuff, looked through some old deviations, blablabla...


Maybe this is a fresh start? I mean, hell, everything drastic is over! *Knocks on wood*

So uh, I'm open for the usual like I was before! message, question, request. BUT I WRITE NOT DRAW

If you have something you would like me to do, I'd be more than happy to do it! I'll try my best to work the scene. If you want it emailed before posted let me know.

I know....that I was...a little angry in the past. Ok...more like a lot angry. I just...didn't realize how much something like that could hurt. I take much pride in my work...and seeing it mocked like that just made my blood boil.

I'm much better now though. I can still smile and laugh at things, I can sort of be like I used to. Minus the scars left from things happened. And the worst part is...everything fell apart once this event happened. I won't name things or people... but I somewhat feel selfish. I cried over some person who for 10 years i thought cared, (how foolish was that) and how they made me feel weak and smile. Meanwhile I'm not there to listen to anyone else! I felt...terrible.

I'm NOT moving to a new account. Because I dont feel I have to.

I know you all are going to say (in which i've considered outcomes)

"Won't they just come back? Whoever did this?"

My answer? I really could care less. Because To me...my work is far more precious than those people put together. So...if they find me again great. They can read and weep.

What now!

I'M LEAVING! LEAVING! THATS IT I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE! THEY FOUND MY PAGE AND I'M EXTREMELY PISSED OFF! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!! UUUGGGHHH!!!!!

*sobs* I never meant to ruin anything. My words are my words. I posted these because i thought it was safe! I thought people would read just to read! They found it! ANd they made fun of it! I can't do this anymore! THEY MADE FUN OF ME!!!!!!!! THEY DONT CARE AT ALL THEY USED MY DREAM MY FANTASY AND MADE FUN OF IT! Why can't I just be like any other person and be normal!?! have a crush!? is it that hard?!??!!

Well that's it! i'm done with deviantart. Obviously a certain someone seems to find it amusing to toy with my feelings. SO F him and everyone else! I thought I could trust...

AND FYI THAT DREAM WASNT ABOUT YOU! IT WAS ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE! WHO ACTUALLY GIVES A DAMN ABOUT HOW I FEEL!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M BAAACKK!!! Mi padre's the technical man of the house so he hooked me up with the winows vista CD! (don't worry it's not illegal) AND I"M BACK IN BIZNASS!!!!!! It turns out that they found what was wrong with my computer. IT wasn't protected numbah one, but limewire flooded it as soon as the protection died. So it wasn't deviantart! yaaay! Alright well now i'm sort of... OH WAIT!


I'm having issues with some friends.... <.< note if you MUST know and swear to the oath of secrecy. (just kidding!)

I have this amazing friend whose gonna make me a bracelet! IT's not just beads and string danie! It's classic art! they break! and shatter!

A real cutie is gonna help me with math *flutters* amaaazinngg....

And because of my damned horomonal menstruals i'm relapsing with an ex. Help help!


Soooo...everyone who said it was absolutely right. Freshman year is the fastest, and the worst.

I'm working on stories i'm gonna post. No more anime based. I haven't lost interest, but i'm just tired of stories made with characters not mine. (so basically fanfiction in lengthy terms)

The first one:

FIVE DAYS...

is all it took for me to realize how much he meant to me. To realize how absolutely crazy he made me feel. To understand why I never made him go away, or said anything to hurt him. Was it really love? Or was it just that false feeling you got when your crush acted interested?

Alright the second... is in progress. Ciao for now!

Yes i know i've been gone for a while but my house hold computers are sort of...messed up. I have i think 7 and 6 of them don't work. the one that i'm using now is...well...limited on the usage. Plus i can't destroy it. My parents (being my father is a tech wiz) believe that deviantart is the source of the viruses. (in which many cases it is) So for now i won't be on for a while. I'll sneak on when i can to look at others deviations but i won't be posting anything for a quite a while.



DANG IT!